peripherally

Waiting Dreams

Oscar Reflections…

We saw her as a typical waiter going through the protocols of a new table with unfamiliar faces. I noticed she had a warm smile.

She told us the specials and then I asked completely off subject, “Are the Oscars your thing?”
A spell was broken. She really looked at me and said, “They are, very much so.”

Could’ve been my emotions running amok, but my heart choked and oozed all over the place.
My eyes welled and held back tears with so much pressure.
I knew it, before she said anything.
Suddenly we were sisters.

“Me too,” I struggled to say.

“Did you watch all the movies?” She asked.

“No, but some though.”

“I watched them all. They were good, some better than others.” She looked down to her writing pad, “It’s a hard night to get through cuz it means so much to me, so I decided to work it.” She chuckles, “Watch it peripherally,” she points up to the one television hanging on the wall like a trophy.

I asked her who she thought would win for best actor, male and female; best supporting, best film, etc. She had answers and came prepared. The word passion came to mind.

“Would you have preferred to be around friends tonight and watch it that way?”

She took a moment, staring into my eyes as she let my question land…

“No, it would’ve hurt more.”

february new moon

new moon january

February new moon helps us clear the baggage of our lives and evaluate the turn of events and decisions that have unfolded in the last six months.

February’s Full Moon will pave the way for the energies of the upcoming Eclipse cycle which begins next month in March.

Here are my new moon offerings:

I let go of old voices.

I let go of age.

I let go of the plan.

I cultivate micro-celebrations.

I cultivate playfulness.

I cultivate abundance inside my heart.

Your turn.
I walked slow today

see you at work

Without commitment, you will never start
Without consistency, you will never finish. 

Ease is a greater threat to progress than hardship. 

Keep moving, keep growing, keep learning.
See you at work. 

#DenzelWashington takes home the Image Award for Outstanding Actor
in a Motion Picture and leaves us all feeling motivated. #ImageAwards

stick to the weather

FADE IN: inside a Lyft car.

She: I’ve never heard of Downey.

He: It’s South-West from there.

She: Uh-huh. How long have you been there?

He: We moved 17 years ago.

She: Oh, you bought a house.

He: No we rent.

He: It’s quiet over there.

She: Ohsure, I’m sure it is.

He: How long have you been in Santa Monica?

She: A year.

He: And before that?

She: I’m from Houston. You?

He: Born and raised in this neighborhood, but we got priced out. Same ol’ story.

She giggles nervously.

She: What’s with this rain, huh?

He: Yeah.

FADE OUT.

 

take a bath in my blood get to know me

Truth
The truth is that I never shook my shadow
Every day it’s trying to trick me into doing battle
Calling out “faker” only get me rattled
Want to pull me back behind the fence with the cattle
Building your lenses
Digging your trenches
Put me on the front line
Leave me with a dumb mind
With no defenses
But your defenses
If you can’t stand to feel the pain then you are senseless

Since this
I’ve grown up some
Different kind of fighter
And when the darkness come let it inside you
Your darkness is shining
My darkness is shining
Have faith in myself
Truth

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