define the nightmare [Pt 1]

What is your absolute worst nightmare?

Ok, here goes.

I’ve been evicted, I’m now homeless.
I’ve lost my job, the roof over my head, family and friends.
I have nothing and no one.

I’m drifting.
I’m floating through existence, lost all contact with my desires.
I’m meandering through reality trying desperately to plant my feet.
Or maybe, maybe, my feet are cemented to the ground and the idea of flying, or being held up suspended in my creativity, is GONE.

Creativity is lost.
It is non-existent.
Like all possession and family, it too has deserted me.
There’s a hollow space in my heart, in my life.

The nightmare continues…

I never make it.
The journey I’ve been working towards hits a dead end.
Or POPS like a balloon
I never reach the top of the mountain.
I’m forever wondering through lawless, no-exit grounds.

I never make it…
What does that feel like?
Insignificant.
I’ll be forgotten, I’ll be unloved.
I’ll be a ghost that may or may not have lived.

Read Part 2

Author: pizzaslices

Liza is an actor and co-creator of Subway Token Films, a film production company that captures Street Level Miracles through films. That is, moments in our lives when the story as we know it stops, the lens is pulled back and something more expansive is revealed to us. Liza has won awards and audiences alike for her portrayals of the immigrant story on stage and film. She lives in New York City and Los Angeles with her partner, actor Felix Solis.